Nearly

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I’ve been hitting print screen for ten years
And it’s never worked
I’ve been hitting reply with truth for ten years
And it’s never worked
I’ve been hitting resend as plain text
And it’s never worked

I’ve been looking at you for twenty years
And I never knew it
I’ve been longing for you for twenty years
And I never knew it
I’ve been looking in the wrong place for twenty years
And I never knew it

I’ve been hoping for more than this for a long time
But it’s never come
I’ve been wanting to find the love with the ointment included
But the top has stayed firmly screwed on
I’ve been looking at my future full in the face
But it’s never come

Now I’ve blown it
I can’t be alone it doesn’t work
There is too much ointment and I can’t read the label
So I have to find a new reader before I can leave the old one

But I never explain
I never explain

So I finally find where to look
I finally find what I need
I finally see what has been in front of me for so long
And I blow it

Now it’s gone far far away
There was a moment there, a brief moment
When it was so nearly in my hand
But I blew it
And now it’s gone far far away from me

I’m not alone
I can’t be alone
No-one like me should be alone
So I have to replace not leave
So I’m fucked

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